And just like that my world is put back into perspective.
I’m always shocked when I put out a vulnerable post and get so much love back. I heard from people literally around the world, and I feel so loved. The people in my life are the absolute best!
My key takeaways and learning from my last post is that no feeling is permanent and it’s good to be in communication even if you really don’t want to be. I found I had a lot more support than I thought from people that believe in me sometimes more than I believe in myself.
I was reading a book recommended (and purchased and shoved down my throat – love you!) by my dad, which was recommended by my aunt (this is how my family operates) called “Broken Open” by Elizabeth Lesser and it says that we must go through the fire of the Phoenix to come out the other side changed and ready to take on what is next in life. The Phoenix process is uncomfortable and difficult and feels like a death sometimes, but it is also transformative. Through these periods of change, we have the opportunity to become more of who we really are and shed the expectations we place on ourselves.
Through my move to London, I have learned so much about myself. It’s actually more than just a move to London. It’s been taking on a job and then leaving that job. It’s been traveling to amazing places. It’s been exploring what makes me “me.” In stepping away from all that was comfortable to me in Vancouver, I’ve been forced to explore who I am at warp speed. What kind of people do I connect with? What kind of work really drives me? When is the right time to throw in the towel and when in the right time to fight and push through? What are the extents of Phil and I’s support for each other? What are we put on this planet for? And what are we willing to risk?
So what’s next for us? I am going to throw lots of balls in the air, juggle them and see which ones drop and which ones build momentum. I’m going to see which feel true to who I am and who Phil and I are as a partnership.